All I want for Christmas.....

This is really all I want for Christmas this year...Or I will just keep saving my pennies :)

Oh, the crisp fall days!

I know I keep saying this, but really I am going to start posting more often! Here are a few pictures of what I have been up to this fall!

I'm back!

I think I will start using this again!! If anybody reads it!! hahaha

Unexpected Blessings

I just want to share with everyone how much God has been blessing me these past few weeks. I know that I have written about this before, but I think we can certainly be reminded. A few weeks ago God was pressing me to let somethings go and it took me awhile but I did it. It was until tonight that I realized this, but ever since then God has just showered me with unexpected blessings. I can't help but smile.....I'm smiling right now...If you could only see. hehe. He really does work in mysterious ways. I love this freedom that I have right now. The freedom to not be in control anymore! I love knowing that the King of Glory, Grace, Peace, and Mercy is the one in control of my life. It makes me feel loved.......


The Love of the Father is like a sudden rain shower that will pour forth when you least expect it, catching you up into wonder and praise.
Richard J. Foster

Walkabout 2005

Alright so I finally got my pictures back from walkabout. As most of you know I am on leadership this year at Warner and as part of the initiation at the beginning of the year all of leadership goes on a 7 day backpacking trip up Mt. Adams. It is called walkabout. It was hard but on of the greatest experiences I have had in my life. God taught me so much throught the challenges I faced each day, and it really forced me to put all my trust in Him. It was so relaxing to be in the wilderness for a week. There was no internet or cell phone to worry about. One of things the I miss the most was falling asleep under the stars each night. So anyway here are the pictures!

Aren't they just the cutest! This is Barnabas and Aaron. They were getting all the air out of the tarp....I think they just wanted to hug.
So each day two different people lead the group to our next camp. This was Aaron and I when we were the leaders for the day and finally reached our camp. I have never been so happy to see a lake!
This was my WONDERFUL group! We had so much fun and really got to know eachother really, really well!
This was the last day after our 5 mile run. We were getting ready to head home!
This was the first day of hiking. That is Mt. Adams in the background. I climbed that! It had only been one day of not showering in this picture, so we don't look to nasty.

Frustrating Tears

Okay so I know its been...well a long time...haha I have been a little busy. But I will make up for my long absence.

Over the summer I was struggling a lot with who I am, how people see me, and how I want people to see me. Which is one of the reasons why I haven't posted anything for awhile.

I am still confused. I really don't understand who God wants me to be. It has really been frustrating me, but it also caused me to dig deeper into His word. Every night I would come to God asking him "why?" Why am I doing this? Why do I feel this way? Why am I going here?

The cool thing about this is that I was frustrated and confused but my relationship with the Lord was growing and becoming everything I desired for it to be and more. I may have been lonely and hurt, but in those moments when I was crying out to Him he always brought joy after the tears.

" Do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is your strength." Nehiemiah 8:10