Shane and Shane Baby!!

So I just want to tell Y'all I am in looove with Shane and Shane right now! They rock my socks off! They have a beautiful Passion for Christ. God has given them such an awesome gift of worship.

I surrender all

I realized this last week that I had not given EVERYTHING to God. I still wanted to be in control of a small part of my life, not knowing how freeing it is to actually not be in control anymore. I have tried giving God everything and I thought I had but last week as I sat staring at the beautiful land He has created I realized how perfect He makes EVERYTHING. The closest I will ever come to perfection is by giving God EVERYTHING. He makes everything perfect. I need to stop living on my time and let God BLESS me with His time.....His PERFECT time.

Worries, Doubts, Fears, Dreams, Goals, friendships, joys, achievements, tears, pain, family, plans, my life, my future, my ALL. Lord take them, make them yours.

Your all I want, Your all I need, Your everything. - Jason wade

Tears

Oh what a week I have had..... with all the homework I have been doing and being a little emotionally unstable, it was tough. It brings tears to my eyes just thinking about it. I've really been struggling with feeling that I haven't been the friend that God wants me to be. Last week it hit me hard and I could feel satan attacking me. I had this nagging voice telling me that I need to be a better friend, that I don't talk to my friends enough, and that I don't deserve them.....the hard part was that I believed it. I took it to heart and it eat me up inside. Every night I read my bible trying to find answers, trying to find reasons not to believe the voice,and it helped it gave me reassurance, but every morning it was back. Mocking me, and pushing me farther down. The ironic thing is that the good came at night and the bad came during the day. Isn't light supposed to represent good and dark represents evil? So why am I feeling this horrible evil when I am in the light? I don't know the answer.... I don't know why I am feeling this way. But, I was tired, physically and emotionally. I didn't know where to go or what to do. I just kept it all inside hoping that it would go away. I went to church on Sunday and this was one of the verses Pastor Rich spoke about.

"Come to me, all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." Matthew 11: 28-30

This is exactly what I needed. God to whisper in my ear and tell me that he is right beside me, holding my hand, and wiping the tears from my eyes. His voice is louder then that nagging voice, even when he whispers.

I want all my friends to know that I love and care about you guys sooo much. I'm sorry if I have not been there for you guys.... I really want to be. I wanna know what is going on with you and I want to hear where your heart it at. I want to know when you are struggling and I want to be there for you to pray for you and encourage you. I really do. Love you all.

Rebecca and I during our long car ride to Spokane! 

The tourists up at the top of Dishman hills. 

Rebecca is ready for the long hike up the mountain, with her front pack. 

aww its Dan! oh and Rebecca and me.... 

Rebecca is putting a flower in my hair for the photo shot! 

Here Conner was trying to kill Rebecca and I.

Spokane or Bust!

Oh my goodness so in about 45 hours I will be on my way to Spokane! I don't know if I can make it that long...... I'm sitting at my desk trying to write a paper yet I keep finding myself staring out my window thinking about all the fun things I am gonna be doing! ahh I can't take it. Why do professors feel the need to give us more homework the week before spring break then they have the whole semester! Silly little Professors...What are they thinking. Oh how I wish I could fast forward through time to friday at 5pm when Rebecca, Tina, and Conner come to pick me up and we all bust out in song because we are so excited! hahaha.. oh that is a funny picture in my head I can see it now! hehe....I think if I had a super power, that's what I would want it to be....Okay well I better get back to that paper.......right my paper... kluvyabye.....

The Wedding

okay so I know this took me FOREVER! hehe...but hey I am a college student, I'm always busy with homework so give me a break. So here are just a few of the pictures from my brothers wedding. Yeah this is just a very, very, very small sample of all the pictures. The photographer took over 600 pictures. There is 6 discs of pictures and a DVD. WOW! But they are all amazing pictures. Anyway is was an amzaing day. I am so happy that my brother has found someone who is so genuine and gentle, just like him... he deserves the best!

I just found this picture of me and my brother. This was in the summer before he was married!  

My family. With my new sister in-law! She looked beautiful.... 

Here is the whole wedding party. It was so beautiful! 

You still call me Child

Lord be my hope
Lord be my light
Lord give me strength when I have no will to fight

Lord hear my prayer
Lord hear my cry
Lord hear my voice in the dark and lonely night

Lord you see my faults
Lord you see my scares
Lord you see my mistakes, yet you still call me child

My prayer

Lord when will this blindfold be removed from my eyes, so that I may see the world as you see it. Give me a heart for the lost and strength to help the broken.

Peace with God brings the peace of God. It is a peace that settles our nerves, fills our mind, floods our spirit, and in the midst of the uproar around us, gives us the assurance that everything is all right.
-Bob Mumford

It's already been a year of change for me. I have a sister in-law and a niece! My brother got married on January 14th! I was a wonderful day. I will post some pictures when I have them. My heart has been so uneasy lately yet at the same time I have been full of excitment and joy. With classes starting up again and having to get back into the homework scene and also things I am just dealing with personally I really haven't been at peace. Yet in the past few weeks I have been feeling a great love for the people around me. I am so greatful for the friends that I have and blessed to have people that care about me. It is amazing how God gives us exactly what we need and when we need it. He is exactly what I need!

Hopeless Romantic

It's official, I am a hopeless romantic. Today was the last day of finals. I have finished my first semester of college! So pretty much everyone on campus has gone home for Christmas break already. But because I have to work tomorrow I stayed another night. Well it is super quiet and no one is around. So decided that I would read a few chapters from this Christian romance novel I have been reading....Bad idea. I ended up finishing the book and balling my eyes out. I actually had to remind myself that it didn't really happen! I am such a geek. But when you have no romance in real life the next best thing is a Christian romance novel. Can I get an amen!?

But anyways I had a great night by myself. Just praying and singing worship songs as I packed up my things for the long break. God always knows when I need a little alone time, which is exactly what I needed tonight. It was refreshing to have some time by myself, with no interruptions. Thank you Jesus! You are so great!

He is the Only Thing Worth Trusting

We cannot revert to killing our heart. Instead, we must accept the first lesson in the journey of desire: ecstasy is not an option. We must have life. The only problem is in our refusal to wait. That is why God must rescue us from the very things we thought would save us.

John Eldredge, Journey of Desire

It amazes me how we put our trust so easily in man, but when it comes to giving up our life to God it is such a struggle for us? God promises that he will never forsake us, or leave us alone. He says that he will love us no matter what we have done. He will always take us back. He will always stand up for us. But what does man have to offer? A hug? A kiss? A Broken heart? The truth is we have nothing to offer, because everything that we have comes from God. So why is this world so afraid of putting their lives in his hands?

What an AMAZING God he is!

Aren't we just the cutest!