Shane and Shane Baby!!

So I just want to tell Y'all I am in looove with Shane and Shane right now! They rock my socks off! They have a beautiful Passion for Christ. God has given them such an awesome gift of worship.

I surrender all

I realized this last week that I had not given EVERYTHING to God. I still wanted to be in control of a small part of my life, not knowing how freeing it is to actually not be in control anymore. I have tried giving God everything and I thought I had but last week as I sat staring at the beautiful land He has created I realized how perfect He makes EVERYTHING. The closest I will ever come to perfection is by giving God EVERYTHING. He makes everything perfect. I need to stop living on my time and let God BLESS me with His time.....His PERFECT time.

Worries, Doubts, Fears, Dreams, Goals, friendships, joys, achievements, tears, pain, family, plans, my life, my future, my ALL. Lord take them, make them yours.

Your all I want, Your all I need, Your everything. - Jason wade

Tears

Oh what a week I have had..... with all the homework I have been doing and being a little emotionally unstable, it was tough. It brings tears to my eyes just thinking about it. I've really been struggling with feeling that I haven't been the friend that God wants me to be. Last week it hit me hard and I could feel satan attacking me. I had this nagging voice telling me that I need to be a better friend, that I don't talk to my friends enough, and that I don't deserve them.....the hard part was that I believed it. I took it to heart and it eat me up inside. Every night I read my bible trying to find answers, trying to find reasons not to believe the voice,and it helped it gave me reassurance, but every morning it was back. Mocking me, and pushing me farther down. The ironic thing is that the good came at night and the bad came during the day. Isn't light supposed to represent good and dark represents evil? So why am I feeling this horrible evil when I am in the light? I don't know the answer.... I don't know why I am feeling this way. But, I was tired, physically and emotionally. I didn't know where to go or what to do. I just kept it all inside hoping that it would go away. I went to church on Sunday and this was one of the verses Pastor Rich spoke about.

"Come to me, all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." Matthew 11: 28-30

This is exactly what I needed. God to whisper in my ear and tell me that he is right beside me, holding my hand, and wiping the tears from my eyes. His voice is louder then that nagging voice, even when he whispers.

I want all my friends to know that I love and care about you guys sooo much. I'm sorry if I have not been there for you guys.... I really want to be. I wanna know what is going on with you and I want to hear where your heart it at. I want to know when you are struggling and I want to be there for you to pray for you and encourage you. I really do. Love you all.